A list of things I

worry about and how I feel occasionally expressed in GIFs of course.


Because girls travelling together sounds exactly like a recipe for BAD THINGS TO HAPPEN.


I mean yeah, if I get my kidneys stolen as Hua is ever cautioning about.


(It’ll be Pinning instead of Paula.)


More practically, what if I lose my money cause pickpockets left and right? Trust me on this, I’ve been a victim.


Excited and horrified????


Breathing. It helps, right?


This is how I feel at all of the above.


I’m not even that stressed. (Looking at you, Pris)


The cooler side of me feels I’m ridiculous for all the above. I totally agree.



It’s only a month.


But my long-awaited trip is finally here!!!



So bye guys and please keep me in your prayers~!

Sidenote: why didn’t anyone GIF the part when Rebecca says I scared in a really really small voice?! WATCH CRAZY EX GIRLFRIEND IT HAS BEEN RENEWED.


Making a list

to quell for desire to shop. And also because I haven’t wrote a list in about forever so let’s start making lists again.

1) Timberland’s SS15 ‘Small shopper bag’ in copper. I just love the color and it looks ultra light as well- a quality I value in my bags. But most likely it’s the material. I’ve recently discovered a love for leather goods, which further leads me to my next item.

2) Leather jacket. Guess this was propelled by Scarlet Witch’s dressing in AOU. On a side note of AOU, I vaguely enjoyed it but didn’t feel like it was worth a second watch in the cinemas. I liked that Capt mentioned his ‘missing person’ but overall didn’t really like how Thor’s scenes were cut.

3) Boots. I just want them to be heeled like an inch or 2? Not too pointy in front because it would fucking hurt and I already have 100000 problems being flatfooted. Being flatfooted is no fun at all when all you get are brands that are obviously targeting middle-aged women.

4) Earphones. Finally something techy. I need a new pair: I’m partially deaf in a ear. But somehow I’m so used to this state that I’m not bothered to the point where I need a new pair the very next day. I make the resolution of taking better care of my wires every time my earphones go kaput but I never. I think I will this time: I can’t afford the annual upkeep. Gotta learn from Brian.

5) Uniqlo’s anything and everything. Wtf I have never actually walked out of any of their stores empty-handed before. It’s slightly ridiculous.

Then again I think it’s time to curb this desire to shop. Not that I have any money. When Pinning comes home I’ll just be broke again because we indulge ourselves too much when obviously I’m not the one drawing a salary.

An ambivalent sort of day

One that makes me go like this:

The moments that made me go:

1. Doing my Indian Rangoli art


Note: The above is a still image and will not move.

It was really fun even though I look like I’ve Hulk’s hands after. I started this Art module not daring to expect too much since not many people took it for the sake of the major but as a way to clear elective etc etc but I got shuffled into a group that was wonderful and actually dedicated themselves to the projects. It’s even more surprising when the group consists of 3 seniors and 2 exchange students. They could totally not bother and put in minimal effort but they did whatever they could.

2. Doing well for my Comms essay quiz that I was so sure I would fail because my head was pounding during the whole time and all I wanted to do was to eat a Panadol and conk out.


3. Completing my Arts essay

Self explanatory. But I still have to elaborate. I’m truly starting to think that all my essays have a small tiny piece of my soul because trying to write them is really…soul sucking. And also when I write my essays, the entire world just knows because I go around asking for ideas and opinions and final editing. You, my friends, deserve a tiny piece of my graduate certificate as well for all your contributions. This essay merits special attention because it feels like I’m going back to my lit roots and analysing a poem etc all over again and I get to write about issues I feel for. #iloveit

4. Being praised for my Chinese and my Chinese enunciation by an exchange student from Beijing.

Do you know the significance of being praised by someone who is obviously infinitely more proficient than you are in a language?????????????

But alas, a day cannot be perfect despite me being able to wake at 12pm.

There were also moments that made me feel like this:


1. Receiving a dinner invitation via text with 2 people I no longer want to be associated with

Seriously? Who do you think I am? Somebody you can just text and ask out on a motherfucking whim after ignoring me? Because i have to be OK when you are? Has it not occurred to you that when you’re OK, I’ve already moved the fuck on? Why the fuck do you think I can be won over by a fucking dinner? Why do you think you can just fucking waltz back into my life like nothing has happened and nothing was ever wrong?

You’re just crazy if you think my friendship is so cheap.

You’re wrong if you think I’ll be at your fucking beck and call.

Just because you have time doesn’t mean that I do and just because you have no friends doesn’t mean that I don’t.

So fuck you.

Stars & Stripes

This is a Captain America: The Winter Soldier Appreciation post.

It has come a month late because I was the first of my friends to watch it and then had to hold in all my freaking feels alone. I can now count the number of people whom I usually talk to who haven’t watched CA2 yet. I wanted to do this like a month ago but I couldn’t. (Liew, you can stop reading here.)

I wanted to do characters individually but I shall condense it into one post (for now) while listening to the soundtrack. The problem is really where do I start seeing as how this movie gave me so many feels?????

So we begin with a completely unnecessary character introduction and I do not care if you think revealing who the Winter Soldier is is actually a spoiler; it’s not.

We obviously have Steve Rogers & Captain America played by Chris Evans:


Bucky/Winter Soldier played by Sebastian Stan:


Black Widow Natasha Romanov by Scarlett Johansson:


Fury by Samuel L Jackson (who is not Laurence Fishburne):

Newcomer Falcon who is cool as fuck because he flies and Anthony Mackie’s self-written storyline is that he is secretly dating Black Widow. Get in the queue please.


The relationships between the characters are well fleshed out and we do get a sense of how they relate to each other. I don’t think I could take any more flashbacks with Bucky or scenes with Peggy because I already have so much feels. I’ll leave out the scenes with Peggy because they’re mildly spoilerish and heartbreaking.

Steve/Natasha: This is an interesting pair because they’re pretty much opposites. They have different work ethics and moral compasses. It’s a work wife/husband relationship I would say. They learn from each other and I think we can see Natasha reflecting on her own actions. I think one defining moment was when Black Widow questions if he would trust her to protect him when push came to shove.

Steve/Falcon: This scene characterises their relationship; Steve leads the friendship. We again see him being the inspirational character who draws Sam Wilson back onto the battleground. Both of them share a military background and it helps them connect. More importantly, Falcon is a veteran who works with traumatised veterans. It’s precisely what Steve needs to help adjust to the modern life without any past connections (or so he thought).

Steve/Bucky/Winter Soldier: This is so complicated. During war vs the 21st century.

You can totally fit the song in Frozen here. We used to be best buddies, but now we’re not. I wish you would tell me why~

This is coincidentally my favourite fight scene in the movie. Can you just focus on the freaking knife flip? I don’t even care that it might not be Sebstan. Him/stunt double James Young does it so freaking well and perfectly choreographed.

I re-watched The First Avenger and I noticed that Bucky was truly played with a lot of depth and nuances that actually helped transit to The Winter Soldier. For all our hearts, I shall not put the gif of Bucky in pain.

Some of my favourite scenes other than character interaction include:

It’s actually pretty close to the actual climax ok. If you don’t feel sorry for the poor Pikachus, YOU HAVE NO HEART.

The lift scene. I could watch it 10 times over and over again. 10 v 1 and Captain still won. But we all knew there wasn’t much of a fight. It just made me sad that his comrades turned on him.

All the scenes involving cars and pretty much the highways. Very realistic and exciting. Just look at the sparks flying.

I can’t wait for Avengers: Age of Ultron.

I need it. NOW.

Awkward Tuesday (part 1)

remains after 5 weeks in school.

I have never felt so much awkwardness in one class as I’ve in my entire existence and it’s miserable.

When I see my classmates, I do the below and even in my mind, there’s a flashing alert of the description of my face I probably just gave. It goes like this: tentative smile has just turned into a grimace and nothing has been accomplished.

And obviously that was even before I got into class because the school just had to assign my prof the room located at the end of a terribly long hallway.

But being part of SMU means being part of the class part culture. I have just realised how incredibly hard it is to get my thoughts flowing in the morning especially when I’ve no friend to act as a sounding board.

Basically, this.

I had no choice if you’re wondering why I even bid for a morning class was because there were only 2 classes offered and the better prof was teaching the morning slot. So I went for it.

All hopeful like and that obviously ended quickly.

Returning to my original point of class parting, I have been making a conscious effort into it. But it ends up like this:

And the class is like…

There’s such a person in our class???

Yeah, there is. I’ve been your classmate for 5 weeks.

Stay tuned for part 2 because despite it being a 3 hr lecture, class has felt impossibly long; even longer than Wednesdays which start at 8.15am and end at 8.30pm.

Sidenote @HY:hope you like this.